And really, there is so much more in this world I should be excited about than the fact that my ankles look thinner today.
Positives:
- I exercised Tuesday & Wednesday. Haven't exercised yet today but I probably will run tonight at some point.
- Am planning on boot camping tomorrow.
Negatives:
- Didn't like my "diet" lunch at all. Healthy food delivery isn't always what it's cracked up to be. Actually it was kind of gross. Roast in vinaigrette with enough tarragon on to to cancel out my taste buds for the rest of the weekend. Which might be a good thing, actually, because then I won't eat so much on the 4th.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Monday, June 30, 2008
Because the nice well meaning lady at work just asked "Are you on a diet" before offering me a piece of chocolate.
because everyone assumes I am on a diet. which means they think I should be.
What I Mean By "This" And Reasons Why I'm Finally Doing "This"
"This" means going public with my diet and exercise and all of the reasons I have to lose weight. "This" means sharing my experiences even if no one ever sees this but me. "This" is to be my reminder, my list of reasons why I can't be the weight I am anymore.
Initial Reasons for Finally Doing "This" include:
1. My weight hit 160, and that sucks. I can remember a time when 130 was my "I should lose 5 lbs." warning.
2. I'm tired all the time.
3. My clothes don't fit, zip up or pull on easily.
4. I can't keep buying shoes, pretty as they are, to overcompensate.
5. I don't want to be the fat girl with nice shoes. Cliche.
6. My calf-muscle fat squeezes out of the top of the beautiful Gucci stiletto boots I bought.
7. I don't want to wear a Spanx every day under every outfit in 90 degree heat & humidity.
8. It would be nice to wear all the cute underthings I have and don't wear.
9. It will be easier to complete the 13.1 mile Disney half marathon if I'm carrying even 10 lbs. less weight.
10. It would be nice for my husband to look at me the way he did when we got married four years ago.
11. It would be nice to nip this in the bud at 30 and not spend my 30s yo-yo dieting the way I spent my teens and twenties.
12. I'd like to have a baby, and it would be way better to shed post-baby weight without also having to shed additional lbs.
13. Some days it looks like I'm already carrying a child.
14. Most days it looks like I already have 5 kids.
15. I look tired all the time. Fat ages you.
16. I don't want to be the girl that gets ignored by salespeople when shopping with my skinny friend.
17. I don't want people to think I'm shopping for a "Mother of the Bride" dress.
18. I'm going to Paris in October and would really love to be happy and not worried about posing a certain way for pictures.
19. I would like to stop obsessing over having "veto power" on every picture taken with a digital camera.
20. Because I don't want to be the fat girl that makes others wonder, "How can she do that at her size?" when I run past them during the Disney marathon.
21. My brother is getting married on August 23 on the beach and it would be wonderful to not have to wear a Spanx underneath whatever dress I have to wear.
22. Because I'd like to be able to pass a McDonald's without the immediate Pavlovian craving for a McChicken Meal with a Coke.
23. Because most of the women in my office are skinny and frumpy, and I'm tired of being fat-but-stylish.
24. Because I'd like guys who aren't my husband to look at me and check me out.
25. Because I want to be healthier, mentally and physically.
So now what am I doing about this?
1. I signed up for the Disney half marathon in January, and will be training for that come August. I've already run 5 and 10Ks and am amazed at my body's ability, though fat and slow, to finish in my condition.
2. Boot camp. A couple of classes. Plus, Ed's challenge when they measured every inch of me. I have until August 23 for my next barrage of measurements and would like to not be embarrassed.
3. Spinning.
4. Counting points, maybe formally going back to Weight Watchers meetings.
Initial Reasons for Finally Doing "This" include:
1. My weight hit 160, and that sucks. I can remember a time when 130 was my "I should lose 5 lbs." warning.
2. I'm tired all the time.
3. My clothes don't fit, zip up or pull on easily.
4. I can't keep buying shoes, pretty as they are, to overcompensate.
5. I don't want to be the fat girl with nice shoes. Cliche.
6. My calf-muscle fat squeezes out of the top of the beautiful Gucci stiletto boots I bought.
7. I don't want to wear a Spanx every day under every outfit in 90 degree heat & humidity.
8. It would be nice to wear all the cute underthings I have and don't wear.
9. It will be easier to complete the 13.1 mile Disney half marathon if I'm carrying even 10 lbs. less weight.
10. It would be nice for my husband to look at me the way he did when we got married four years ago.
11. It would be nice to nip this in the bud at 30 and not spend my 30s yo-yo dieting the way I spent my teens and twenties.
12. I'd like to have a baby, and it would be way better to shed post-baby weight without also having to shed additional lbs.
13. Some days it looks like I'm already carrying a child.
14. Most days it looks like I already have 5 kids.
15. I look tired all the time. Fat ages you.
16. I don't want to be the girl that gets ignored by salespeople when shopping with my skinny friend.
17. I don't want people to think I'm shopping for a "Mother of the Bride" dress.
18. I'm going to Paris in October and would really love to be happy and not worried about posing a certain way for pictures.
19. I would like to stop obsessing over having "veto power" on every picture taken with a digital camera.
20. Because I don't want to be the fat girl that makes others wonder, "How can she do that at her size?" when I run past them during the Disney marathon.
21. My brother is getting married on August 23 on the beach and it would be wonderful to not have to wear a Spanx underneath whatever dress I have to wear.
22. Because I'd like to be able to pass a McDonald's without the immediate Pavlovian craving for a McChicken Meal with a Coke.
23. Because most of the women in my office are skinny and frumpy, and I'm tired of being fat-but-stylish.
24. Because I'd like guys who aren't my husband to look at me and check me out.
25. Because I want to be healthier, mentally and physically.
So now what am I doing about this?
1. I signed up for the Disney half marathon in January, and will be training for that come August. I've already run 5 and 10Ks and am amazed at my body's ability, though fat and slow, to finish in my condition.
2. Boot camp. A couple of classes. Plus, Ed's challenge when they measured every inch of me. I have until August 23 for my next barrage of measurements and would like to not be embarrassed.
3. Spinning.
4. Counting points, maybe formally going back to Weight Watchers meetings.
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